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I am pretty much the coolest person you will ever know. But--thats just the thing, you will never know me because i am a distant loner despite my public outgoing persona. Working on that!
I have 2 children, my loves. I had them young, and that completely changed my life. It forced me to grow up, and think of more things than myself, my hair, my looks, and my french manicure.
My kids are 4, and newborn...and have already taught me more than i presume i will ever get to teach them. Vivian saved my life. If it wasnt for her i would probably be a drug addicted stripper on the verge of death. I hadnt felt true love before her...and thats what she taught me. "Love." She made me love her so much that i changed myself completely to be better for her, i hope i can repay her one day. She, at 4, is my best friend and rock.
Bradley is my newbie. He is my soul mate. Now, i know people refer to soul mates as a sexual relationship....but, i dont agree. We are kindred spirits. He gets me, and i get him and its so soon to feel that for him--but it was instant...from the second he was born. He has taught me how to REALLY smile, and laugh, and be goofy......not for a crowd, but from within. Harder than i thought. But easy with him.

I live with my boyfriend dave, my savior. Before him i thought love was fighting, breaking up, physical abuse, and extreme highs and lows. I thought..."well if i love him enough to get so mad he's cheating and we physically fight...we must really love eachother!" What an insane thought pre-dave. He is my amazing man. He takes me as i am, mood swings and all. I could go completely psycho, trash the house like a hair band in a hotel room and he would hold me, and comfort me, and not make me feel like my nutty self. Its really sick, actually. I have never felt this love.....we will be together forever. Lifetimes to come......we're probably from lifetimes past.

I lived in NH, and now live in CT and i miss my friends terribly.

My life used to resemble white water rapids. Everything a crazy mess, moving too fast to stop, but now is more like a lake...completely still...with the occasional ripple. Now i can really think about my family, my life and what i want...

I am presuing everything i have ever wanted in hopes one of them work out.


...we shall see. To be continued.

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